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I knew this moment would come. Now that I'm on the side of the "bad guys" I'm very sensitive to nuances. I notice who no longer comments here and make my interpretation which may be wrong but that is my sensitivity. I would so much like things to go differently but I have no control over what happens.
Yesterday I was at the hairdresser, there were few people there, we talked among ourselves in the silence and pain of shared fate. This country is small and everyone knows more than one person who was killed, kidnapped or missing, there was no need to justify or explain anything. No one had to "pick a side", we are all on this side. I read in the blogs of people not from here how difficult it is for them with this situation in the world and I feel a little guilty, I know I'm not really guilty but I started to think that maybe it is no longer possible to separate "who I am" in blogland from a difficult story of pain and sadness, I still can't find the real reason why I'm sharing my thoughts here, I'm not sure that those who don't go through it can really understand. Blogland is a kind of "imagined reality" where real people exist, apparently their opinion is very important to me otherwise I wouldn't bother to explain it.
And finally, if I succeed I will upload a picture of the meatballs I made today. This also happens here. before cooking.
Hi Yael. I want you to know that I'm still here and I'm glad to hear from you and to know you're safe. I'm sorry for what you and your loved ones are going through.
ReplyDeleteYou don't have any control over the war situation but as least you still have some control over the small things of everyday life. That at least must be some sort of relief. .
ReplyDeleteOrdinary people on both sides are living in terror. I feel it hard to watch tv news. It's a terrible situation and I just pray that somehow the conflict will come to an end. I suppose that will be when Hamas is obliterated.
Meantime I look for your updates and your thoughts.
Thank you Linda. Your approach as always is correct, sensitive and smart. And while I'm writing this, rockets hit Tel Aviv again.
ReplyDeleteI think Linda has already said what I was going to say.
ReplyDeleteWe are all, I think, just hoping that this will all be brought to an end soon.
Yes, we are all for it.
DeleteJust hoping you stay safe, Yael.
ReplyDeleteThank you Ellen.
ReplyDeleteHello Yael, I am still here and just read all your posts that I have missed' while I have been off line.
ReplyDeleteI am gratefull to the Israeli people for fighting for all of us. I feel for you in the situation there and hope you stay safe.. Thankyou for keepingus informed of what is happening.I comb the internet for information, much of what you tell us,is out there, amongst the rubbish that is written.
I cant see that your people could have acted much differently in the situation.
When you see the crowds marching, remember that the largest part of the population are not there and many dissagree.
Please keep on writing, I tell all my family what is happening and they in turn will help spread the truth.
Stay safe . I will hold you in my thoughts.
Kathy
For a while recently I turned my blog to private because I just wanted to talk to myself for a few days. Blogland can be a difficult place to be part of sometimes. Don't read too much into absentees. life happens and not everybody can speak everyday or find the right words to say even if they want to. I like to see your cooking tonight and the words of your post and you are always in my thoughts whether you post or not, I don't forget you.
ReplyDeleteI really appreciate our friendship Rachel, and I understand that you can't write comments on every post, it's my excessive sensitivity these days that got this post out of me. On normal days I'm even very embarrassed by the attention here.
DeleteThank you Kathy. I understand that not everyone can write comments all the time, I also don't always comment on every post I read, my post was written out of great distress when I saw the public opinion in the world so against us in the global media. It is very difficult to be in such a place when we are in existential danger. I thank you for the support.
ReplyDeleteI am with Rachel here. I think that you should not worry about how many people don't post, because as far as I am concerned, you will never be on the 'bad guys' list. I think of and worry about you and your family a lot and I am always wishing you peace and happiness. You are going through a very rough time, but it must end soon.
ReplyDeleteThank you Tom. Most of the time I am not very anxious and try to function as well as I can, indeed it is a difficult time but this too shall pass.
ReplyDeleteI copy a little the first comment, Jennifer’s , because I'm not « still here » .What it means is that before I read your blog occasionally. Now it his in my favorite list and I am also very happy for you to know you're safe.Catherine.
ReplyDeleteThank you Catherine.
DeleteMy youngest grandchild's bar mitzva this Shabbat but there won't be any partying or music because the whole community is in mourning for Israel's losses. My own son and his family have survived sofar, but 3 people I know in Melbourne have lost a nephew or cousin in Israel.
ReplyDeleteBe safe Yael, and your loved ones.
Yesterday there were alarms in Tel Aviv. I hope your son is safe.
DeleteWhat Jennifer said exactly. I've been on holiday, and am just catching up with blogs. Your meatballs look delicious and the photo is enhanced by JN's towel. Keep safe!
ReplyDeleteThank you Barbara. JN's towels are wonderful.
DeleteI think of you often Yael. Living through this horror is heartbreaking. If only those in power could work toward peace and end the death and destruction of war. Far to many innocent people are caught in the middle of this conflict and the pain and suffering is horrific. I pray for resolution and your safety. Your meatballs look delicious and I hope you gathered with family to enjoy a lovely meal.
ReplyDeleteI try to keep a routine as much as possible.
DeleteHugs to you, Yael.
ReplyDeleteThank you Bea.
ReplyDeleteFrom what I see and read in the news, your forces seem to be rooting out Hamas from their hiding places. Maybe the end is in sight and the hostages will soon be returned under some sort of deal. Don't worry about people not commenting, there is so much misinformation out there that they probably no longer know what to think.
ReplyDeleteI wrote the post in moments of anxiety and it seemed as if support from here would really help, of course it's only an illusion. But it helps me.
DeleteHi Yael, I have a feeling I might have said something along the way that upset you. But I feel very deeply for you and your worries over your family. I cannot do anything to make this terrible tragedy go away, all I want is peace for everyone.
ReplyDeleteThelma, I don't remember you saying anything that upset me, it's clear to me that everyone has their own opinion and I can't change it. Thank you for the support.
DeleteGood morning Yael, I am also still here and reading your posts and worrying about you and all the innocent people on both sides. It horrifies me that in my country jewish communities feel so unsafe. Like everyone else I hope for an end to this war.
ReplyDeleteThank you Frances.
DeleteYour meatballs look fine Yael! I bet they were delicious when cooked. It is nice to have some normality- such as cooking - as a brief respite between what is going on right now.
ReplyDeleteI always try to keep a routine. it helps.
ReplyDeleteYale, you are not forgotten. Really like to hear your perspective. I found you through Rachel’s blog and hope you continue us to write. Be safe. The world is upside down right now.
ReplyDeleteHow do you cook those meatballs ? Do you serve them in soup??
ReplyDeleteDepends on who I make them for. If it's for the grandchildren, I make it with tomato sauce. I fry them separately and then cook them in a sauce. This time it was for my son, I made it in a lemon sauce with herbs.
ReplyDeleteYou can also cook them in soup.
ReplyDeleteThey look good and have given me some ideas, what are you cooking today ? Stay strong Yael many are with you.
ReplyDeleteKathy
I don't cook every day. Thank you Kathy.
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